The PoWer Of WorDs

Re.Enter.

2011-09-06T02:07:00.008+08:00

Just as time passed, time slips away like the wind.
Just a split moment, everything stopped and freeze.

But as this continues on, it might just start everything all over again.

Re-entering back to her own world, where only her words makes sense to her. She tries to recall the last time she leave this place and wonder why did she left. It has been quiet ever since, and it has been quiet ever since outside her world too.

Maybe it was time to restart and reset back to where she left off and start again.

And just for that moment then, everything moved and starts to come alive slowly again.

re.enter.

Another year fades away

2010-01-02T23:48:00.005+08:00

Another year fades away just like that, and now a new year to start again. Incredible how fast it went.

Nothing much to recall back, but well, just say it wasn't a good nor a bad year either.

My blog template just gave me problem. I might have a plain, really plain blog skin for the mean time. And not forgetting work in a few days time, damn.

Oh! Countdown was fun and awesome with friends, with the feeling of nostalgia at the same time though.

Now, all I want is to have a good year.

The Downturn

2009-12-22T23:47:00.004+08:00

Faults after faults and now it becomes permanent to what she thinks. Working minds that goes haywire, putting nonsensical thoughts to meaningless things, and just making one go mad. The air is filled with faults and mistakes, and she feels cloudy just recently, soon it will just start to rain, and maybe, just maybe, a rainbow might appear just to make her day look good again. And she prays the rainbow to be out by the new year.

Now, the night is the only comfort.

Okay, that pretty much sums everything up for the countless days i'm away. Now a break from work, and time to revive myself.

Lost of touch to lots of things which feels kinda empty inside out.

The moments

2009-11-09T21:49:00.006+08:00

Have practically no time to blog ever since work, but finally a slacker timetable from work. NICES!

Nothing fantastic happened, except that I met a few band ppl and great musicians at work, the environment is still pretty new to me, but what's there to complain when work life is not that bad after all.

Oh, RPWS concert was super awesome, all the soloists did great! (: Makes me miss band life that I once have.

Now it's November, and sooner or later, it's gonna be 2010. How fast.

this day, it was the happiest moment back then.

Too Nice

2009-10-07T23:28:00.013+08:00

All there is to do now is continue with what I have, and endure for the sake of next year.

Admin, teaching, recordings. Admin, teaching, recordings. Admin, teaching, recordings. ETC. And it goes on like that.

All seems alright for now, for now only.

I wonder if I'm too giving for the sake of others, til I neglect myself. But isn't it a good thing?

Sometimes I just think too much. Damns.

RIP

2009-09-23T23:24:00.007+08:00

The house echoed with prayers from the voices of his loved ones, and as tears rolled down from their faces, he took his last breath.

20092009,
Rest in peace grandpa. :( :( :(

It's still hard to believe. sighs.

"In the end, there are three things that last: faith, hope and love; and the greatest of these is love."

Twenty

2009-09-08T00:51:00.004+08:00

Twenty, oh Twenty on the 7th sept.

Bad start for a day like this, and I thought it would end badly, but it turned out well. Thanks to all that wished me and to my family for the big cheese cake. (:

she wants to close her eyes, to where she thinks will make her happy, or will she not?

Wheeee!

2009-08-28T22:53:00.004+08:00

A very shocking and unexpected result for me and I still can't believe I got a merit for my grade 8. Now that's one big burden down for me, and a big relief! Have to pray my theory exam pass too, then i'm more than contented and happy. (:

Should I take diploma? hm...

But this happiness last for just a day, the days ahead are still the same and it's getting harder and harder to get through as the rejections get higher. Well, as much as I want to give up and am tired of it, I must still go on. Damns!

A peaceful and wonderful dream that can never be reality, but yet it feels so real and the warmth of it can still be felt after I open my eyes.

NDP 09

2009-08-10T23:47:00.010+08:00

Great weekend!

Though it's just NDP, but it was super fun. My first time celebrating Singapore's birthday live and helping out, it was pretty tiring but fun and you get to see all sorts of people! Anymore of this type of events, count me in man!

Now I'm aching all over after yesterday's event and 10 laps of swimming.

"every memory of looking at the back door, I had the photo album spread out on my bedroom floor. It's time to say it, it's time to say it, goodbye, goodbye."

- Photograph by Nickelback

Alone

2009-08-05T00:04:00.003+08:00

Things ain't going the right way and definately not going my way. Yet again, simplicity is not that simple after all. I just want to settle down, have enough to survive and live life simple, guess it's too much to ask for ah.

It feels terrible to find that i'm the only one left with nothing on hand. This sucks, trying everything but all ends up been rejected. Just 1 month left, 1 month.

Who am I to say anything when I don't know anything?

Damn, it's probably the night that's making me emo.
Maybe shutting my eyes will give me peace and quiet.

Retrace back

2009-07-31T22:28:00.007+08:00

Retrace my steps back to find myself ending up at this certain place. Just standing there and recalling what happened there was an awesome feeling. (:
I miss that moment.

Who says living in the past was bad? Just the good ones, look back and you will find yourself smiling to yourself. And hey, life isn't that bad after all.

We were all once loved, won't you all say so too?

Oh my, August is here.

is it okay to still say imissyou?

Losing it

2009-07-26T23:13:00.007+08:00

Job hunting is seriously killing me. How easy it would be if I was born a singaporean. Nevertheless, I still have to keep searching. Dammit.

My expenses are higher than ever and I feel bad always spending my parents' money. If only monopoly's money were real, wohoo!

Oh damn, it's wandering in my head non-stop again.

I'm losing myself just to find a place in your mind.

Treasure them

2009-07-20T23:22:00.006+08:00

People say you know how important things are after you lose them. I totally agree. Just look at Micheal Jackson, well, you guys should know since almost the whole world did it.

It's sad that you will never know it after you are gone.

I'm glad that my grandpa was fine. It was painful to see him in pain. But he overcomed that stage, and it made me want to treasure the people around me more than ever, be it my loved ones or my friends, because I can't bare to even imagine it.

If there's a second chance to do it so, just do it. You never know when's your last chance.

Things I shouldn't

2009-07-13T23:54:00.003+08:00

One exam down, one more exam to go! To think that I actually forgot that I still have my theory exam. zzzzzz Well, good luck to me!

And hey, it's already July! Oh Gosh! How amazing that time files when you are not studying. I miss school, I miss making music, I miss playing music, I miss lots of things ever since the graduation.

When's the next time?

Capture things and buried them somewhere deep, to find that one day, it has been dug up.

By who? I wonder.

Disaster

2009-06-29T00:57:00.003+08:00

Exam was a total disaster, now is up to fate to decide.
Sigh. This is the worst.

Post exam relaxation was fun and enjoyable. (:

Starting now, I'm in hell. Luck and will is all I need for now.

I want this, I want that, I want those, I want all.
But I can't have all.

The start

2009-06-15T22:59:00.003+08:00

My last RPWS concert ended well and I pretty much enjoyed every moment of it. (:

The ache inside of leaving a place full of good times and bad times once again. Now another 1 more week, I will lose my freedom, and start to earn. HAHA, finally!

Now it's counting down days. Pray for me.

Hide it away and everything will be fine.

The ache

2009-06-05T23:45:00.003+08:00

Band camp was awesome, except for the fact that everyone has muscle cramps, but I guess it was all damn fun.

Just thinking back, this could possibly be the last band camp I will ever have. Kinda miss it and will start to miss playing in a band after the concert. I wonder how my life will turn out after my exam, probably the work life will suck, if not, what's life man.

Fast forward and I can see myself dieing with regrets. Greatness.

But then again, who wouldn't? hm...

Life's been....

2009-05-26T23:42:00.003+08:00

Life has come to a halt.

3 more weeks, just 3 more, and the biggest fear of all will be gone.

Conquer this so I can finally rest and carry on with what I really want, which I don't think I really know now.

Sounds pathetic. Haha. (:

The true meaning of things that meant alot to me, lost with sight and time.

The old days

2009-04-03T00:18:00.005+08:00

The old days in a small room,
the old days spending hours and hours of practicing,
the old days when band was everything.

Kinda miss the times when I was in MSL especially during SYF.

And now SYF 2009, no more familiar faces in the band, only for the alum9. But still, it's MSL. Even though I don't go back, but still I support them with all my heart.

I'm proud that you guys maintained and got GOLD. (:

Fear is pulling me away from my goals.

Through surface

2009-03-25T23:31:00.004+08:00

The surface of everything gives the intial impression. Rough or smooth, dull or colorful.

The fact is sometimes we are just too scare to look beyond the surface. Once we look beyond, unexpected surfaces might appear.

Some will be missed, some will deceived you.

But you never know, there might be a rough surface with a colorful and smooth layers after all. (:

Melting away

2009-03-19T23:06:00.004+08:00

The night of silence,
with the sound of the rain,
with the sound of pure music,
it's just heaven.

Imagine outside raining, and listening to some smoothing music, like Isaac Sherpard's music, I will definitely melt straight away. Actually my heart's already melting away, just feels like the best moments of my life. (:

If only words can make people melt like music does.

Inside wonders

2009-03-11T22:47:00.004+08:00

Once again facing reality, stopping to look around. It's not the same as ever and by that time, it's too late. Fantasizing the untrue and waking up to nothing. Life's too perfect to be true, once in a while there's ought to be some hardship. Nothing's gonna drop down while you sit there aimlessly. Knowing truly what's inside but avoiding all obstacles rather than facing it. Wasting time and money, with nothing coming out of it. They are always right, and will always be. Now, it's not too late. One step at a time, just one step, and the next, and the next.

All are just pure meaningless words.

One big tight slap.
Thanks, I'm awake now.

Running inside

2009-03-01T22:54:00.003+08:00

From Korea to CNY to Hong Kong, madness of food intake.

1/2hour of sun tanning,
2.4 km run,
20 crunches,
20 push ups.

Ended up with 2 blisters on both legs and muscle cramps from head to toe.

You can imagine how long I haven't being exercising.

And that was just for a day.

I forgotten what I wanted to blog, shit.

Truth or dare

2009-02-08T00:31:00.004+08:00

Truth or Dare.

You'll be surprised how daring kids can be, they are all so willing to be chosen for the dare, but ended up screaming and running away from it, cute cousins I have (:

And with all the aunts and cousins sitting round the table playing Snap, wonderful times (:

Time files, and I realized I have very little time left to practice for my exam. AHH! With all the free time I have in my hands, it's really time to practice and plan forward.

It's the only thing left.

Lost sense

2009-02-02T23:30:00.002+08:00

The days of no school, suddenly I miss those days.

Sleeping damn late, waking up damn early, reaching school just on the dot, going through the boring lesson and just hanging out in school. Looking at my siblings doing their homework and being hardworking, makes me think back why I wasn't like that.

Now I wonder whether will there be another school life for me again.

Applications are now open for U, but I doubt the chances of getting in.

This is bad.

Anyone any job offer?

lonely night

2009-01-30T01:45:00.006+08:00

A sudden strike of lonliness.

Not that I want to be emo or anything, just can't help it. Maybe of the music I'm listening to right now, or maybe I have been staying in an empty house for too long.

Now with nothing going on in my life, it's a good time for me to just think of my life, and when I think of that, it's quite saddening.

And to think again, I just realized the sad truth of life.

Thank god this won't last long.

The End

2009-01-23T23:51:00.004+08:00

The end of something, the beginning of none.

Last day of school, feels great to finally be leaving there. I wonder If I will still be able to study, I wish I can.

A place with left and right, with no middles. I'm glad I'm leaving that place soon, it's difficult to be neutral but it's difficult to side too.

Makes me realized that there's a few things that's leaving me, and it feels really good! (:

Or rather, these 3 years changed me.

Now that it has ended, where's my next starting point?

With someone playing guitar through MSN, it kinda makes my night. (:

Drown

2009-01-14T10:44:00.003+08:00

I have practically nothing to do, and my fingers are itching to type.

Or rather, I'm drowned in my own thoughts and dying to vomit it all out.

Or maybe not.
damn.

The day before

2009-01-10T00:33:00.005+08:00

Cannot really explain how bad the day was, because it was probably one of the worst day ever. But it's not all that bad when it's after school.

I'm just praying for good news.

Well, that was the day before.

People say to trust your instincts, and I guess instincts does speaks alot sometimes. But whether it's true or not, it's another thing.

I doubt my instincts, because it doesn't always turn out the right way. But if it's right, I couldn't be any happier.

I wonder how long it's gonna stay inside me.

Accused

2009-01-07T23:52:00.005+08:00

Why do parents always accuse their children for something they didn't do?
Why do parents always assume everything, when those are all not true?
Why do parents think they are always right, and children are always at fault?

I bet all your parents are like that, no doubt about it.

It's quite saddening, and it kinda pisses me off.

But what's the point? I just wasted 10mins shouting my lungs out just to get my point straight, in the end nothing's change.

sigh.

Simplicity

2009-01-04T21:49:00.007+08:00

Why are songs so simple but yet sounds damn nice?
Why with just a few simple words, people can change the world?
Why with just a sorry, all faults can be cleared?
Why with just 4 simple letters, it can make you go crazy?
Why with just a hug or a kiss, it can melt your heart completely?
Why a picture speaks a thousand words?

Guess that's the beauty of simplicity.

I love it, but life just can't be that simple.

Speaking of which, I feel quite blessed right now. Don't really know why, maybe because I recalled lots of wonderful things from the past which I never thought I would have.

You know, just walking down the road alone, thinking back and suddenly smiling to myself for no reasons, quite an awesome feeling (:

Pretty much want to stay this way for the mean time.

May the next 3 weeks pass like the wind.

End of beginning

2009-01-02T22:59:00.002+08:00

Looking through my entries for 2008, I'm glad I have a blog where I wrote pretty much what was happening then.

I went through lots and lots of things.
I think it was the busiest and most physically, mentally and emotionally tiring year of all.

Well, that's 2008, guess I really went through too much things.

2009
Another new start, I can imagine it to be a rather busy year again.

Especially when I have my grade 8 theory and practical exam! AHH!

And not forgetting graduating soon. Haven't even figure out where am I going.

This is not good.

2008-2009

2009-01-02T16:02:00.005+08:00

I'm back from Korea!
8 days there feels kinda long.

Tried recalling what I did in Korea from the first day to the last day, but I can't.
Damn STM.

I can definitely remember the weather there.

Temperature of -10 degrees everyday with strong winds blowing in the face, feeling the numbness and pain of cold.

Especially when I have to take photos.
It's difficult to use the camera when wearing gloves, so I had to take pictures with my bare hands, enduring the cold, until I can't even feel my fingers.

Well, it's for the memories.

Food!
They have standard side dishes which are cold for every meal.
Kimchi is a must in Korea, its a tradition there. It's doesn't taste that bad, but it's quite salty.

Steamboats, Ginseng chicken, Porridge, Western meals, Buffet, BBQ, Seafood, Dumplings.

I pretty much ate almost all types of meals there, and it's all good! Except for the Ginseng.

Oh ya, Kimchi isn't that difficult to make, hahaha
I think I'm gonna be eating them for quite a while at home.

People in Korea are friendly, really friendly.
They greet you every single time, without fail.

Last, SNOW!
It's all white, it's looks pretty much the same with what you see on TV.
White across the land, it's beautiful.

And it finally snowed when we were skiing.
Well, it feels like rain.

The worst thing that could happen to you during winter time, is to get sick.
Probably it's because of the weather.

Roughly this was what I did in Korea.

Quite lazy to load pictures here because my internet sucks.

It's fast,
2008 just ended like this,
wonder how 2009 will be.

Merry Christmas and Happy New Year (:

2008-12-25T11:54:00.007+08:00

In a few hours time, I will be flying to Korea!

Gonna be back next year (:

Okay, this picture kinda suck :/
Haha

Merry Christmas and Happy New Year TO ALL!!! (((:

JC/POLY Band Festival 08

2008-12-22T20:17:00.010+08:00

JC/POLY Band Festival 08!

Really great experience, especially getting the chance to perform in Esplanade with VERDI band!

But it was pretty tiring on the traveling part.

The new Malaysia custom sucks!

There were finally complains and at least there were abit of changes, but still, it's Malaysia, can't really expect anything.

Had to walk all the way from Singapore to Malaysia which took me 1.5 hours, barely by foot! It's the most tiring 4 days I had.

But well, it's kinda worth it (:

Managed to get a few photos, still waiting for more to come! (:

Verdi Brass Girls!

Leon, Darren and Janice (:

Aidil (:

Shannon!

Aaron!! x)

It took me quite long to just take a photo with him :X

Surprised to know that he is my sister's senior!
Too bad he has a girlfriend, and my sister knows her too. haha!

With the Festival done, I finished the arrangement for Aizat too, in just 3 hours.

Now to finish up my FYP report, before I fly to Korea on Christmas day! (:

DAMN

2008-12-14T23:52:00.007+08:00

Christmas concert finally ended!

My 2 best seniors, Godwin and Shannon were there! All dark and skinner from their NS, haha. Shuilin was there too! Very sweet of her in giving the whole section a card and chocolates (:

It's rare to have us all together, especially when they have NS and work.
They still owe me a treat! (:

And because of my piano lesson, I'm gonna missed out the fun at ECP with the cliques zzzz

Next JC/POLY Band Festival.
Another tiring week!

I need to finish "I need to be in love" arrangement for Aizat by the end of the festival too.

And blah blah blah more....

4 letters speak all, DAMN!

Next,
Gossip girls!!!! x)

Especially Chuck and Blair!

They are just super sweet and great together!
But it's sad that they can't be in the show.

Okay, Rain is the best weather to sleep!

Shutting my eyes to the place where all my troubles are gone (:

Over

2008-12-13T21:34:00.006+08:00

I don't know why anger was in me yesterday,
but it messed up everything.

To you, I ruined it myself. And I agree.

I'm sorry I gave you nothing but suffer and unhappiness.

The phrase of life that I hate to go through,

Move on.

I think I'm gonna breakdown anytime.

Too much bad things falling upon me all at once.

I'm so worried.
Okay, I should stop thinking too much. Damn!

Regrets, but it's too late to turn back anymore.

How great!

2008-12-11T23:24:00.002+08:00

G302 presentation is freaking over!!!!

which like usual, things will go wrong on the day, but I guess the overall was okay.

Report and Oral Defense zzzzzz
I seriously need a short break from FYP.

Sick and getting sicker.

With even more worst things happening.

Whole body aching like mad,
Body burning up like hell,
Head's going to explode anytime,
Throat is getting worst despite drinking so much water.

How GREAT to be in this state right now.

3 weeks of holiday and I wish to just sleep through it,
But I can't, damn!

9118

2008-12-09T00:07:00.002+08:00

A month ago,
on this very same day...

Flashbacks of everything between us just came rushing back to me.

I recalled everything.

Times of happiness,
Times of sadness,
Times of regrets.

If only time could bring me back to that day,
But i guess it's impossible.

Sigh.

are you thinking of this day too?

What I needed.

2008-12-07T21:02:00.015+08:00

I must really thank my Besties for yesterday.

They were there for me when i'm really sad and lonely.

Yesterday was something I really needed.

I make mistakes,
I misunderstand things,
I say stupid stuff,
I'm a fool at times,
I speak without thinking at times.

I'm sorry for all those.

But tell me, Who doesn't??

No one is perfect, that's why we try every ways to make up for it.

We just need someone who will be able to understand and accept our imperfections.

It's never a win-win situation, which is kinda sad and painful.
There are always bound to be loses.

Guess I'm at the losing end now.

How much will you give just for love?

Unchangeable

2008-12-04T23:49:00.003+08:00

She needs a place for her to dump her thoughts.

But this is not a good place.

I'm starting to think whether I should still continuing blogging, whereby I don't really update, even though there's lots of things to.

Guess it's really not the best place for me to write.

She really loves him alot.

Another Chapter

2008-11-29T15:27:00.005+08:00

There is too much things to write in just one post,

and it's too painful to be read by anyone,

Especially you,

But I wish you knew.

How I wish I could turn back time, and change everything.
i am a fool to have realized it too late.
I hate myself.

Heart to heart

2008-11-27T23:41:00.002+08:00

When was the last time you spend quality time with your family?

It's been a long time for me, not everyone is home everyday, even during weekends, and I always go home pretty late when everyone is fast asleep.

I miss those moments, just sitting together and start talking craps!

I'm kinda glad that I didn't attend flames award.

Heart to heart talks with family is always the best, they know and understand me the most.

I'm pouring my heart out, but what is it for?

Thorns and Roses...

Gone wrong

2008-11-25T23:26:00.004+08:00

The other side of life I'm at now.

Or maybe it's just for the time being,

Too much things to list down, I leave it on my own.

Seconds from the clock,
The sound of the fan,
The cold breeze of the night,
Just the right atmosphere for me,
TO DO FYP!

But with my older brother now at home, he's a big distraction to me!!! AH!

A night I shall not sleep...

One week chaos

2008-11-20T23:45:00.009+08:00

A week is going to end again.

I'm busy like mad and tired like hell!

SAF concert
Running from city hall to esplanade to catch an amazing concert by the SAF band, was tiring enough, with the lack of sleep and hunger.

Rhapsody Concert
Concert with Rhapsody just over, it was a great concert! and we are a bunch of crazy people!

FYP is done with 3 songs, down to the final composition!! AHH! 3 more weeks!

Christmas concert is also coming...

And 3 more weeks to the next long holiday! I can't wait zzzzzzzzz

I hate sunflowers! Not because I don't like them, but they made me suffered from itchiness and I think some allergies or what so ever zzzzzzzz

Watch the world come alive tonight....

Looking back

2008-11-18T23:19:00.002+08:00

I realized I haven't been writing alot to myself ever since then. And I found this part of my life that I closed quite a long time ago.

Lots of flashback, and realized how much I have gone through in my life, regardless good or bad.

Night before was terrible, earlier this morning was even worst, but hey, everything is back to the way we were (:

She felt something different in this,
She loves her BF! (:

Touched of action

2008-11-13T23:56:00.004+08:00

I hope this is not too late, but Happy birthday to you! ((:

I think I said this a million times already, but still I'm sorry for not doing anything and neglecting you on this day. Hope what I said makes up for that (:

I'm super stress up now, composing and arranging is so difficult. There goes my weekends again zzzz

Time can you forward yourself? Please!

Oh ya, I just found my twin sister! I'm super shocked to hear the same things coming out of our mouths, and going through the same thing at the same time! HAHA (:

Touched by the every little thing (:

The worst and the best

2008-11-10T11:57:00.006+08:00

The worst weekend i ever had.

Saturday:
Woke up with a major flu, really major! I couldn't concentrate during my piano lesson, ended up been scolded.

After that, rushed to buy my black pants, and almost lost my wallet! o.o

Just few minutes before the concert, I was suffering with the flu, almost wanted to just go and sleep. Couldn't play for the 1st half of the concert, sorry Eugene!!!

But managed to get better and played for the 2nd half.

Concert's over, tonning at bev's house! with my flu getting worst -.-

Sunday:
Woke up later than expected, and got scolded again. Slept for another 3 hours but overslept and couldn't make it for the jazz piano concert zzzz

Ended up going vivo!

I was stunned! Vivo rooftop, with a big christmas tree, the sea, all so sweet! (:

But what the heck is wrong with my brain? zzzzzzzzz

AHH!

Yesterday was a night not to be forgotten, I will have faith in you ((:

Concert

2008-11-07T22:40:00.002+08:00

If everyday was like today, HAHA

I hope I can survive another 7 weeks of school!

Concert tomorrow!

SLEEP EARLY!!!!!!!!

Silent thoughts

2008-11-06T23:54:00.003+08:00

Last year of poly life is hard to endure!

Band practice was hard to endure too! Headache, cough before concert, how great zzzz

Busy months ahead, which will always result in sleeping late and I'm so used to sleeping at 2am! AHHH!!

I will get rid of it, and will keep trying, for you.

The silence and the quietness, the one thing that will always make me think and reflect. I love reflecting, think about your life, reflect on oneself but it always end up been emo zzzzz

Inside the mind of my own.....wonders...

Difference

2008-11-05T23:05:00.003+08:00

Difference doesn't matter (:

That photo is famous already! Cuteness! (:
*p.s, I took the photo haha

I hate Wednesdays, too lonely, too boring, too tempting zzzzzz

9 more weeks, seriously! I can't wait for that!

I think there's some problem with this blog skin O.o

I'm becoming more stupid each day I'm having a headache -.- -.-

third of always...

All cleared (:

2008-11-05T01:40:00.007+08:00

I was just about to blog a post which I wish i didn't, but now...

There's no need for that (:

I'm glad! (:

I feel so much better, with a lift off my chest, if not, I hate to be feeling that way during concert.

Now finally! For my sleep zzzzzzzzz

A Change

2008-11-04T12:29:00.005+08:00

Sick and tired of the previous skin.

A change for the new.

Simplicity.

The number of times

2008-11-03T23:04:00.003+08:00

The number of times,
The countless encounters,
The past,

What more could I expect?

I'm just a fool.

Back for...

2008-11-02T20:33:00.005+08:00

Back for the sake of keeping my blog alive, I'm just too lazy to blog the things that happened in the past few weeks.

What happened were these:
- I have Pi Sai Ge (:
- School School School
- Jalan Raya 08
- Band practices for Concert
- Mum's birthday
- Free Heroes Screening at Vivo
- Np Band exchange
- Fyp Fyp Fyp Fyp!

And school is starting again, with lots of things coming up.

Questions are hard to answer, with answers being so difficult to find.

What do people always say? Follow what you believe and that's the answer.

AHH! I miss typing out all my thoughts here!!!

Guess I shall update more regularly....

The Lost

2008-10-01T21:58:00.003+08:00

The lost to think,
The lost to do things,
The lost to be inspired,
The lost to feel motivated,
The lost to be determined.

The lost to try,
The lost to strive,
The lost to move,
The lost to find a way out.

I'm at the lost now.

2 days spent

2008-09-29T23:31:00.003+08:00

2 days of fun and craziness, if only everyday was like that!

Yesterday went Shannon's house, played Rock Band, Wii, and more. But not forgetting his dog BIBI!! Damn cute with a cute name too! Too bad we didn't take any picture -.-

Today, I was suffering in lesson with all the cables and wires and chantings!

But after school, practice for Candyman, and went off to cwp to eat and slack around.

Really crazy time at cwp, especially at MAC, pictures go to Aizat's or Eugene's blog! If they are updating.....

And I saw a JC guy that looks like someone but better looking and taller! xD

NO SCHOOL FOR 2 DAYS!!!!!!!!!

The world is still big....

Blank

2008-09-27T23:02:00.003+08:00

A blank piece of paper,
on an empty hand,
in an empty place....

Her hands,
Her mind,
Are always empty.

Buffet!!!

2008-09-21T22:06:00.004+08:00

Section treat yesterday to celebrate Shannon's birthday, my first and maybe last since he's going NS soon.

Didn't managed to go his house since I need to go home for some birthday party -.-

Shannon enjoy your NS! ((:

Got my driving license yesterday and unfortunately I can't drive for 2 years because I'm under probation. To prevent any thing to happen, I cannot drive for 2 years, which is freaking long!!

A day passed makes the path shorter to a new beginning...

path to nothing...

Old schoool

2008-09-20T00:30:00.003+08:00

3 years after graduating from my secondary school, I finally went back on normal school days.

It hasn't change a bit except for the colors, but other than that, all were the same. Makes me think back to my days there, where everything were still new.

Now it actually looks like a school with some long history, which makes me feel bad, meaning I haven't been going back for very long!

Seeing faces that I have not seen for damn long and a first practice with them, the feeling of playing together before graduating were still there, I miss those days!!!

I'm proud to be in MSL band (:

The result of boredom

2008-09-17T20:18:00.005+08:00

I just did something fun!!!

Created facebook account, and deleting it due to the fact that I'm lazy to maintain it ^^

Okay! It's lame -.- But it was out of boredom!

Seriously, I recall having other things to do.

Thinking of it, I need to practice my piano...

and I need to start practicing my trumpet too, for the upcoming concert...

DAMN! I'm wasting time now....

Self

2008-09-15T23:14:00.002+08:00

What can I say?

My life is like a straight line now.

It's in a state of no return.

14 more weeks to graduation!

Looking into the mirror,
seeing only the reflection of nothingness...

Halfway up

2008-09-08T21:29:00.003+08:00

A class missed because of my driving test!

I hate the examiners, with their 24/7 pissed faces, and scolding people! But heck!! I passed!!! FINALLY!! (:

And thanks to all my friends who wished me, it was more than enough and I'm happy (((:

Halfway up from the bottom...

Just another day

2008-09-07T23:19:00.003+08:00

Just another day that is the same as any other day.

The ups and the downs,
I'm at the downs now,
out of reach from ups...

Why issit turning the other way round again?

Running of fingers

2008-09-04T23:53:00.002+08:00

Running my fingers in the middle of the night,
practicing and thinking when was the last time I was so hardworking in practicing my piano?

Watched a piano recital at TRCC today, and made me thought and sort of inspired me to practice.

The pianist was damn good!! Her arm and finger were so firm and strong, and I can't believe she managed to memorize all the pieces!

The dream of becoming a pianist like her is still beyond my reach.....

Guess I just dream too much....

Oh ya, first day of school sucks!!!! -.- -.- -.- -.-

16 more weeks and counting down!

Day out!

2008-08-25T23:24:00.003+08:00

A great day out! Loved it! ^^

Next Thursday school reopens! How sad!

I'm gonna enjoy myself this whole week! (:

Next Sunday last driving lesson! Following Monday, FINAL TEST!! But it's sad that it falls on that particular day, ARG!

PLEASE LET ME PASS! I HATE MANUAL DRIVING!!!!

Will I be able to make it?

The touch

2008-08-20T22:12:00.003+08:00

13 black and white keys,
in a row,
a key was been played,
it echoed in the living room and faded away...

It's no good,
the touch has slipped away from her hands ): ): ):

Too late

2008-08-19T23:54:00.005+08:00

Apologize by One republic

I'm holding on your rope,
Got me ten feet off the ground
I'm hearing what you say but I just can't make a sound
You tell me that you need me
Then you go and cut me down, but wait
You tell me that you're sorry
Didn't think I'd turn around, and say that...

It's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late

I'd take another chance, take a fall
Take a shot for you
And I need you like a heart needs a beat
But it's nothing new
I loved you with a fire red-
Now it's turning blue, and you say...
"Sorry" like the angel heaven let me think was you
But I'm afraid...

It's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late

It's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late
It's too late to apologize, yeah
I said it's too late to apologize, yeah-
I'm holding on your rope, got me ten feet off the ground...

Should have put this earlier in my entries, well...

The song just says it all.

Anywayss...

My day today was filled with fun and laughter! (: (: (:

As always

2008-08-18T21:15:00.004+08:00

A little girl sat on the swing of a playground,
swinging and looking at the sky,
and told herself,
the sky is as blue as always...

She went to the slide next,
push herself down the slide,
and told herself,
the wind is as breeze as always...

She went to the see-saw last,
sat on one side of it,
and told herself,
She's never gonna go up as always...

And she just walked away,
like always...

Crawling out

2008-08-18T13:48:00.004+08:00

Crawling out from inside,
like a new born baby,
catching her first breath
to the world of imperfection again...

I guess there's no perfection if there is no imperfection in life, like people always say, life is just unfair, but in actual fact, life can sometimes be fair too.

When bad things come to an end, good things will surely appeared, you just have to suffer for a while, before you can enjoy.

Guess we just have to live with it (:

Outing

2008-08-16T21:48:00.005+08:00

I just spoiled my dad's precious guitar that is almost as old as 30-40years old!!

No more guitar to play =(

Anyway, hanging out with SJ and Song lin was fun, it's better than staying at home. Just walking and looking at stuffs, and managed to get a box of FREE munchy donuts!!

And town is a pretty good place to hangout, aside from the shopping, you can actually hear local music around there, which is great and I like (:

I think I need more rest, to cure my irritating and painful headache!!

.........................

By my side...

2008-08-15T20:18:00.004+08:00

Looking at the sunrise,
Wish you were here by my side...

It's weird, I keep having this feeling that today is thursday :/

I could be staring blankly at nothing,
but my mind is crowded with thoughts of you...
I need to drain out everything...

I can't, just can't ):

Wishing star

2008-08-14T21:28:00.005+08:00

How I wish I could catch that star, and wish....

A night at ECP with band buddies and a BBQ with DSA mates was a good way to start my holidays.

It was great fun! (:

Read Aizat blog for details, I'm too lazy to type out, hahaha

And It was a night that I managed to stay awake through the next day!

Should do this more often, I'm so in love with the beach, the sand, the sea breeze and the sky!

I have always dreamt of staying beside the beach (:

I tried, but why do I still think of you?

Down and Down

2008-08-11T22:06:00.005+08:00

How great! My languages are getting worst due to the fact that I don't read books, newspaper, or study them anymore? I'm getting stupider -.-

But I always have the mindset that even if I don't speak well, I still have music (:

A moment in life,
where everything just seem right,
even though there are still wrong,
but it was just perfect for a moment.

Miracles doesn't happen everytime,
it happens once in a lifetime,
that's why it's call miracle,
can I have another miracle?

I wish you didn't have to....

Family outing

2008-08-10T21:23:00.008+08:00

Outing with my family was great and fun as always. It was a good time to get away from some things, but I guess it didn't work because of my family -.-

A 2 days vacation at some small town in Malaysia which I forgotten what's the name, purpose of going there, was to go mountain climbing, or rather trekking, and I can say I'm not fit for that! I'm the weakest of all in the family -.-

Well, this trekking trip with my family was much better than the 1st (:

This was the entrance :/

The tiring paths!

I'm gonna be fat man! This trip has been like a food morathon too, work out during holidays!

2 more days of school and 3 weeks of holidays that I have been waiting for!! Hope I can complete my driving and get my license xD

Once a while, I can see tears...
Once a while, I can see me smiling to myself...

Nonsense

2008-08-08T22:54:00.006+08:00

It was nonsense, it wasn't meant to show anyone.
So it was removed (:

It takes time to build things up, but it takes just a few seconds to destroy it. And, takes even longer to build it up again.

I'm glad I'm not hanging anymore, but it still sucks.

Well, whatever! at least I feel better now.

To my friends that were there, I'm thankful to have you guys (((:

My ulcer is healing, and my ear is getting better, phew! I'm not going deaf!

You are sick, pleaseeeee take care of yourself! ((:

My family is glued to the TV because of Olympics 2008 -.-

I feel sad and sorry for myself.....but it's okay.

Sadness

2008-08-07T23:09:00.004+08:00

Not thinking straight now, so if you see me staring blankly, don't ask me why, I will not say anything, because it will make me feel worst, and I hate it.

I don't express how I feel, because I don't want to, and don't like to.

So, I feel much better just writing them here.

Or maybe not....

A Chance?

2008-08-04T22:37:00.003+08:00

FYP 1 is done, following up with FYP 2 proposal is done too!! Wohoo! Feel kinda free now, and till now, 1 more week to holidays! I always like the last week of school! haha

My piano teacher just told me the results for grade 8 practical this year, highest mark, 100 o.o just passed??!!! She was so glad that I didn't take the exam this year, I'm relief too! hahaha

Grade 8 is damn stressful, my teacher can just analyze the score from playing, and her sight reading is damn good, grade 8 standard is really high. Can I make it to my teacher?? Hmmm.....

I'm getting tired....
Why??

tough night

2008-08-01T23:27:00.011+08:00

FYP oral defence!! I hope time will just fly pass for tommorrow!

Actually if time could just fly to the holidays, that would be great!

Oh ya, I break a record for myself.

The longest time taken to reach home from school, 5.5 hours!! -.- -.-

tough night again??

Breathless...

2008-08-01T22:50:00.003+08:00

Going deeper and deeper,
into the dark and creepy sea,
it's pitch black,
seeing nothing but darkness.

I wish I could see the surface of the sea,
imagine how beautiful it can be.

I'm going breathless,
can someone save me from drowning?

Word by word

2008-07-28T22:48:00.002+08:00

Scribbling on the pages of a book for the past few days, and realized it's in a mess, with no meaning.

But now,

word by word,
line by line,
paragraph by paragraph,
page by page.

I can see something now (:

Expectations

2008-07-27T23:03:00.004+08:00

SIBF week is finally over, performance at sentosa was great, been a long time since I performed like that.

2 more weeks of school!!!!

Getting all caught up with thoughts,
Losing sight of what's around me....

SIBF

2008-07-26T00:57:00.004+08:00

RPWS did great in SIBF, claiming Sliver and 2nd place in 1st Division (: (:

A whole week of SIBF is busy, packed, but it's a great week of music experience, I'm glad music came to my life.

I guess when someone is angry, they just can't control themselves and become unreasonable and all, well I can understand that.

Decisions are not only made by one person, it makes me feel pissed to know that someone has plan something for you without asking you, and you are not free, how irritating -.-

I admit wrong...

Just listen before shouting.

My throat hurts from shouting too much.....

Limitations to an extend.....

Just sweet! (:

2008-07-20T22:09:00.003+08:00

FYP 1 is almost to the end, except for oral defence, and after FYP, band competition is up next, with all the performances, oh and FYP 2 is coming up next soon, my life is so busy but aimless -.-

I shall endure for another 3 weeks!

You stepped into my life,
started pouring sugar all over me,
How sweet can my life be right now?? (: (: (:

Your every messages makes my day (: (: (: (:

Missed (:

2008-07-15T23:13:00.003+08:00

A road I once walked through,
with the many scars that left behind,
and now as the clock moves,
I could no longer feel it.

But as time passed,
I find myself still bruised with scars,
not as deep as before,
but scars are always scars.

Now I feel what I have felt a year ago,
But some things just won't change,
or will they?

when was the last?

headache

2008-07-10T23:31:00.003+08:00

FYP is finally over!!! I can say I was super nervous, and I screwed up a few parts, but well, great and fun concert! (:

Thanks to everyone who came (: Report time -.-

I hate JULY!! It's gonna be a busy, packed July! I wish August is tomorrow, HAHA

Headaches headaches headaches sobsobs

Oh no! I have not practice my piano sobsobs

it reminds me....

lol!

2008-07-07T08:52:00.004+08:00

The beginning of a fear is coming, a fear of mistake, a fear of laughter, why do I fear??
Random thought...

Come support my FYP concert (:

Heart and Symphony 7pm, 9 July (wednesday)
E2 Hangar (studio1)

Karl made someone happy twice because.....ROFL!! (: (:

Inspiration pls!

2008-06-29T21:55:00.002+08:00

My laptop is finally as good as new, it was really boring without my laptop for at least a week.

FYP FYP FYP FYP FYP FYP FYP!!! ARG! *pulling my hair* Hope everything goes well...

Inspiration, motivation and confidence, please be in me to the end.

Not forgetting SIBF is also reaching soon....arg!

I need to rest....

Dreams

2008-06-18T23:11:00.002+08:00

I wonder if dreams mean anything, sometimes it just feel so real but when I wake up, every thing's gone.

If only dreams can actually come true.

What I wish for, always doesn't turn out the way it's supposed to be.....

Better i hope

2008-06-09T21:53:00.003+08:00

FYP for the whole day, not bad for the day, started abit on the covers, chionging on for FYP! Vista all day!!

My legs seem to get better, no more swollen but I think the inside was badly injured, even though there's no blue blacks but it still hurts inside.

I guess it will take almost a month or more to heal the inside. Well, at least it's not swollen anymore, yeah!!

Sorry to make anyone worried so much, I still can walk, so I'm fine (:

I wish I have a talent,
Or do I have?

Recover soon

2008-06-08T22:10:00.003+08:00

Was been told to do this, hahaha let's start then (:

1) If your lover betrayed you, what will your reaction be?
- Damn pissed

2) If you have a dream to come through, what will it be?
- Nothing more than a simple life that I can survive without any worries

3) What will your dream wedding be like?
- Beside a sea, simple but memorable is enough

4) Are you confused about what lies ahead of you?
- YES!

5) What's your ideal lover like?
- Someone that can always be there for me no matter what

6) Which is more bless, loving someone or being loved?
- Being loved, but I guess loving someone is a blessing too, unless the other loves you too

7) How long do you intent to wait for someone you really love?
- As long as there's hope, I will wait

8) If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
- Give up on that person, no use hanging on

9) Is there anything that make you unhappy these days?
- em...not really

10) Is being tagged fun?
- think so :/

11) How do you see yourself in 10 years time?
- Hopefully working and earning a living

12) Who is currently the most important person to you?
- Nobody in particular

13) What kind of person do you think the one who tagged you is?
- Someone that wants me to do this -.-

14) Would you rather be single and rich, or married but poor?
- married but poor, well, money can't buy love, be with that person no matter what, rather than be alone

15) What's the first thing you do every morning?
- Check my phone

16) Would you give all in a relationship?
- Yup, but not to a extend that I'm completely blinded by love

17) If you fall in love with two person simultaneously, who would you pick?
- The one that appreciates and loves for who I am and I can give my trust to completely

18) What type of friends do you like?
- Those that are always there for me and I trust, spend time together and having fun

19) What type of friends do you dislike?
- Think big of themselves

Wohoo, 2nd survey start...

1) How long will you wait for someone you love?
- Same as previous

2) What do you want to do now?
- Get treatment for my ankles :(

3) What is the last thing you do/say if tomorrow is the end of the world?
- Gather all my family and friends

4) Do you hate your friends sometimes?
- No, unless they do something that makes me pissed, but I get over it after a while (:

5) What will you do if your best friend has been kidnapped?
- Of course gonna save him/her

6) Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after the rain?
- Yup, beautiful!

7) Who will you choose between, your ex or your current boy/girlfriend?
- My ex is the past

8) What's your desired age of marriage?
- 25

9) Are you happy with your life now?
- Maybe

10) What if your crush asked you out?
- Why not? hahaha But I think I will feel nervous? :x

11) What will you do when you have a crush that knows you have a crush on him/her?
- Curious why he knows and ask? But I think I will be shy to even face him :x

12) What feelings do you hate the most?
- Been betrayed, failure

13) What will you do if you fall in love with your best guy/girl-friend?
- Say nothing that might affect the whole relationship, which I hate

14) What are you looking forward to in the coming weeks?
- CHIONG FYP!!!

15) The most important thing in you life.
- Anything that matters to me

16) Who do you hope to always be there for you?
- Those that I love

17) Do you find life meaningless?
- Sometimes, I wonder why I'm in this world

18) Who do you love the most?
- My loved ones

19) If you know you are leaving the world, what are the things you would want to do?
- Treasure every single moment I'm gonna have with my loved ones

20) What's your greatest wish?
- Not really sure

21) What will you change if you can turn back time?
- Change the choices I make that made me regret

Pretty long survey, but I won't asked others to do. (:

Ankle oh Ankle, please don't get worst!

Band camp 2008

2008-06-07T13:39:00.002+08:00

Band camp is finally over, super duper tired within the 4days 3nights camp. Really have lots of fun in the camp even though there were some bumps.

I can't believe a string can cause my legs to become so bad, thought it was just a minor blue black, but end up it got swollen and I don't know why!! Gonna see a doctor soon...

Please recover soon both my ankles =(

I keep telling myself I can't do anything good,
It seems true....

Band camp!

2008-06-01T23:17:00.002+08:00

Exhausted, exhausted, exhausted!!!!

Dry run was tiring, ended up with a few blue blacks, but it was fun :)

2 weeks of holidays seems more like 2 weeks of busy-ness, it's not even enough for me to rest.

I'm glad I have at least the whole day of tomorrow to rest well, before band camp.

useless piece of me.....

Collapsed!

2008-05-25T21:45:00.003+08:00

What a tiring day! Seriously I can just collapse now...

Cycling marathon with secondary school friends was fun but damn tiring. 15km!!! Under such hot weather, until I was slightly tanned. After that, I was damn exhausted, just slept all the way in the MRT to yishun and met aizat.

2nd half of the day was great too, even though it's only me, aizat and eugene...

The last week of school starts tomorrow! I can't wait for holidays, but it's gonna be damn busy. 2 weeks is not enough!!

Can I rest longer?
Go away work! Don't disturb me!!

Away

2008-05-20T23:51:00.003+08:00

Sometimes I feel like there's no getting through you,
Like you don't appreciate all that I do,
you gotta show me that you want me to stay,
Don't turn and walk away...

From Keyshia Cole - Falling out

I guess this song explains everything that I can't put it in words.
Thanks phylis for this song :)

Things come and go, that's life, just face it! You can't change what has happened even if you want to.

The best way but saddest way, is to just let go...

Pilling of things...

2008-05-19T21:55:00.003+08:00

I never had so many things happening all at once in my life.

It's like I'm in a box, and things just keep falling down until I got no room to breathe. Luckily I'm not taking my piano exam this year, if so, I will collapse.

Talking about piano, I passed my grade 7 theory with merit!! I was so scared that I might fail, now for grade 8 :)

Work hard for something, suffer all the hardship that has to be overcome, and it will all be paid off. I just realized that, and I regretted wasting so much time just slacking. But, sadly, I feel I'm a talk but no action person, issit too late to realize that?

Do I gain something better when I lose something??

All i need

2008-05-17T00:54:00.002+08:00

I'm physically and mentally tired.

My legs muscles are aching like hell! Think it's because of the running during welcome tea, lack of excerise :X

Going to be a busy weekends, don't even have time for my piano now. I'm so gonna be scolded by my piano teacher.

Open house performance, filming! Don't think I will be able to attend the MSL BBQ, sad!

zzzzzzzzzzz

It's just another of those days....

Days

2008-05-14T22:36:00.002+08:00

A day where I look strong, but struggling inside...

Tomorrow is the same day again....

And it continues....

I'm tired of it.....

Mood down...

2008-05-14T00:40:00.002+08:00

Pretty fun day today, get to build a string instrument with my team, I'm proud of my team's effort and result. (:

Band was as usual, the place for me to relax...(maybe -.-)

I took trust for granted, I hate been betrayed in anyways.
I really don't understand why can't people just return the trust?
Is it so difficult?

Tiny little droplets of silence touched me,
The chill and loneliness I felt,
But how peaceful it was for just a few seconds?

It returns yet again....

Go away angel

2008-05-10T14:56:00.003+08:00

I was given a perfect sight,
I was given hope,
I was given trust,
But sadly, all were been destroyed...

Ain't angel supposed to be great and innocent?
Why do I see another side of it?

Nevertheless, I'm glad to have good friends around me when I'm going to fall (:

I wish I was stronger...